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It’s The Little Things


Sometimes in life, it is the little things that get me through the day. Things such as a bird’s tiny chirp or the sound of water hitting the rocks in a lake. Last Friday I took a mindfulness walk with my Experiential Therapy group. We enjoyed an entire hour just walking on a path by the lake. I felt nature’s presence and it invited me to take a look at the many little things that have the power to make me smile. As I walked I couldn’t help but write and describe everything I was experiencing; it was almost magical. This is what I wrote:

As I walk down a soft dirt path towards the lake I notice the sweet songs of the birds that are high up in the air. I can’t help but smile as they flutter up above me. I can admire the strength in their weightless wings that have the ability to carry them anywhere they please. Dandelions are scattered white and yellow while other flowers show off their bright pink and orange colors. The lake is just ahead and the water is extraordinarily clear. I can see the rocks and pebbles that lie under the water. I even noticed a single penny gleaming in the sunlight.  The trail takes me into the woods where the trees seemed to bow down around us, protecting us from the sun’s rays. The canopy created a tunnel and provided the birds a safe place curiously watch us. The plant life is thriving in these woods. New buds and new life are everywhere. This trail makes me feel fearless, and even if it’s for only a few minutes, this freedom will not be forgotten.

~ Stay Chipper ~

Quick update for all of you following my story. So I’m finally at Rogers Memorial Hospital, Cedar Ridge, and it’s been a very busy week. The view is gorgeous, and my room overlooks the beautiful lake.  Almost every morning outside my window I see a Mama, Papa, and baby crane. The baby is just a fuzzy ball of cuteness. It is a great way to wake up after the hard fight I faced the day before. Everyday I am facing my OCD and doing Exposures. Exposures are exactly what they sound like. I am “Exposed” to my irrational thoughts and fears. We purposely trigger my OCD and I sit with my anxiety until it goes down 2 points. So if I was at a 4 I have to wait until it is at a 2. It’s exhausting work and many times nearly impossible to sit with. I’m literally fighting my brain and rewiring it. So all in all, it really is important to have the little things like Baby Crane to keep me happy and smiling. I’ve meet so many amazing people and have seen some very scary sides of OCD. It’s a hard fight but we all are here to fight it together.

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I Can Blog?!

Why hello! I know, such an unexpected post! Before I get to the real post here is a quick update. I’m here at the Eating Disorder Center in Rogers Memorial Hospital and we can use the computer! I can not express how happy this makes me! I will be transferred from the Eating Center to the OCD Center in about a week where I most likely will not be able to blog, but until then I’m so happy to have read all the supporting comments; they made me cry! Now onto the real post.

Life loves to give us something good and add twists and turns to it. Sure, it keeps us hopeful for better days which is a great feeling to experience, but what about when life has knocked us down and then takes yet another kick at us. That moment when we are already at a low point and life gives us yet another challenge? I’ve always been so confused as to why moments like that have to happen, but then I came to a realization. Life may be kicking our you-know-what at the moment, but this is only one part of our life.

I am 20 years old and recently realized that through those 20 years I grew up from being a baby, to becoming the strong girl I am today. Not only did I realize that, but I hopefully have 20 (and more) years ahead of me. Everything that ever happened to me in my 20 years is shocking, and thinking that I have all this time to have a nice happy life. What I have lived so far isn’t the end of my story. I have all this time to get better and become who I want to be, and that thought is very comforting.

This is it for my blog post today! I’m exhausted from a hard days work of reprogramming my thoughts!

~Stay Chipper Friends~

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Quick Update

It has been a quite a hectic and emotional last couple of weeks. I’m in the car right now heading to the airport with my family to fly out to Wisconsin. I will be admitted into Rogers Memorial Hospital tomorrow (Wednesday) and will be there for most likely 3 months fighting my OCD. I’ll be using Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and Exposure Therapy to overcome the demon inside my brain. I hope I’ll have a way to blog while I’m there but am not sure if it will be possible. This is going to be a very hard battle, but I’m happy to get the help I need. Thank you for all of the support! 

Stay Chipper! 

Sorry for the poor quality, I’m posting from my iPhone.